Sophie_Tiwi

DAMN WEEK

2009-04-05T08:33:00.000-07:00

I HATE THIS WEEK...I REALLY HATE IT A LOT..
AT FIRST...ITS ALL ABOUT MY ID DESIGN..THIS ONE CANT THAT ONE CANT...
SECOND...I JUST BEING TREATED INVISIBLE TO MY FRIENDS...
THIRD...IM BEING IRRITATED BY MY FRIEND A LOT THAT CAN CAUSE ME REALLY2 HATE HIM ALOT NOW...
I HATE JUST HATE THIS WEEKK...
I just wanna get everythings right..
and please dun force me to hate u much more my friend...
I dun wan to repeat the same mistake like what i did last time....just dissapear from my eyes and dun disturb us...
i drop my tears coz of u...coz of u there is a black dark ambience around me..
caused a chaos..
i jst ....i dunno...i just wanna end everythings soon...as soon as possible....got back indo is the best!!
Enough for me to hear a lot of discouragement from the people around me...the closer one...
Enough for me to drop my tears for all...
I need my mom, I miss her so much..I miss her existence beside me...who will encourage me the most...in everythings I do!!!

Assessment coming

2009-03-31T12:08:00.000-07:00

well...assessment coming...critique 3 had passed...and we were waiting for our final critique to come...now i was like so damn bored and sick of doing this single social club...i dunno how to design...sometimes just curious and wonder whether i can make it to continue to degree or not...
and tml is KIM class...OMG....what she is going to say about mine?no design?boring?
hm....kk back to work....lolx

Valentines day

2009-02-15T06:29:00.000-08:00

Hehe...valentines day this year i was not expected that he will do something...

as he bluff me that he wont buy anything for me...but who noes...

when on that day he got history group disscusion at jalan besar..and i was still sleeping like a pig at home...he went with joan to buy me flower and a gift.
So that day it goes like...

hm....we met at peace centre as we are going to have our lunch together...so i was waiting for him in front of pece centre..then i saw him came to look for me...well...actually i was walking and waiting behind him..so i shout "Raymonddd.....!!!"

then...i saw him carry a bag..and what i expected really happend...well before i went out from my home..i kind a got a feeling that he will do something or buy me soemthing...but i was too dump to believe him and ignore what i expected...so i just like...okay fine no flowers on this valentines...

hehe...but then he gave me that plastic bag..inside got a flowers and a gift..

woh..i felt so touched and about to cry...lolx.. so lame..

so i act like...huh?for me?

wahahhaa..u noe girls like to act...lolx..

very happy lor...

then we went for a lunch at peace centre but he dun wanna eat..

so...nvm lor..i ate myself...

then in the japanese food court i go and open the gift...and again for the second time what i guees is correct..its a bracelet...

lolx...coz i lost the last year bracelet....that he gave me..paise..
then we went back and take a nap..as at night we got an appointment with eilin and they all to go to wala2...

before we went there we had our dinner at 6.30p.m at billy's bomber..

its quite nice...well at least i nvr order the super not nice chicken wings that i had ordered before..

then after that we met they all in holland village there...and had a great fun until 6 a.m
the longest nite i ever had... ^^

and super sleepy...hehe

So...yeah....

last word i wanna say is..thanks dear....u quite succesful for the surprise...lolx..
though u bluff me..but...thats the fun part..but it doesnt mean that i let u to bluff me..hor..

Hari Kasih Sayang?

2009-02-12T17:03:00.000-08:00

Hari Kasih Sayang tgl 14th Feb,09
Aku ngga tau n ngga yakin hari itu bakal menjadi hari yg bahagia buat aku..skrg aja aku muak dgn smuanya...
tiap hari cuman air maata yg nemenin aku ...
tiada kata yg dpt menyemangati aku walaupun dr diri sendiri,ortu dan sebagainya...
gmn caranya biar aku bisa bangkit?
itu yg aku cari2 blakangan ini...knp smua bisa dan aku ngga bisa?
ngga ada kata ngga bisa kalo km blm nyoba,itu yg biasa tmn atopun sodaraku blg...
tapi hati ini aja yg ngga mau kebuka2...
Tlg dunks buka...aku uda ngga tahan kalo ini tertutup terus menerus.

Di hari Kasih Sayang,aku rasa aku ngga bakal sng seperti tahun sebelumnya dmn aku seneng bgt dan ngrasain kasih sayang dr seseorg yg aku ngga sangka dia bakal nglakuin sesuatu yg bisa buat aku kaget dan bahagia

Apa sih masalahnya? apa point dr mslh2 yg akku hadapin sekarang?
aku capekkk..capek bgt...

Ada apa dgn diriku?

2009-02-12T07:56:00.000-08:00

eh...bisa ngga seh km tuh bangun dr tidurmu?
bisa ngga?
kmn seh motivasi km slama ini?
km tuh uda suffer dr juli kmrn ....ampe kpn km mau bertahan?
skola berantakan, dll...ada untungnya buat km?
skrg km tuh uda yg plg lambat di sekola?puas?belon puas?mau nunggu apa?
ampe km failed gtu?

km tuh uda ngecewain byk org...tp tetep aja km ngga mau bgn2..heran..gmn seh carana km tuh bisa bangun trus semangat lagi ngerjain tugas2mu?
apa yg bisa buat km smgt?
percaya dirimu tuh kmn?

maunya plg ke indo mulu...
knp?
km mau buat ortumu kecewa?

though u keep telling urself all these...u just cant wake up...i hate this!!!

Try to recall back

2008-12-18T21:01:00.000-08:00

HOngkong Trip..
haha....sorry..its quite late though to make this blog...but...
let me try to recall what did I remember about that..
okay...
we departure from Singapore to Hongkong is on 8 December 2008 by Singapore Airlines...
KK...the first day we went there...we went straight away to our Hotel which is IBIS hotel at Java Road...North Point...
then we proceed to the MTR which is like MRT in Singapore...
we bought the Octopus card and it cost us about 150 hongkong dollar...
which is about 30 dollar sing...
ya..then our first destination is.....what sia...
hm....perhaps we went out for dinner that time...whahahaha....
correct me if im wrong...
well....
food in hongkong is so horriblle...i mean not the taste but the portion they give is u superrrr a lot...OMG
u will not be able to finish it by urself...till weqiang oso got phobia of eating rice when he was there...lolx..
after we finish our dinner..we went to the peak by taking a tramp...yah....this is how the tramp looks like...
then the tramp will bring u to the peak where...the whether there is v.cold...like being inside the fridge...

untitled

2008-12-03T08:17:00.000-08:00

feeling blessed?
yeah...i was...
and now perhaps....

why i keep on lying to myself..
why i keep...cheering myself..
why do i keepp on choose to be the one who...keep all these
why do i act strong but yet not strong...in fact
why do i need to lie on my truely beloved people...
why??

u r not strong
u r not smart
u r loser
u r a fool
u r stupid

u just bluff urself..
wad do u ask to urself....
why do u need to askk urself when u try to find the answer or perhaps noe the answer...
why u do you act stupid to urself for keep on wondering for the answer...
r u just acting to be stupid...???

wad r u wishing for
its just a dream
its impossible
its just an empty hope and answer
u will not get it back...
once it lost it will hard to bring it back to u...

wad r u saying
its just air that come from ur mouth
its nothing

wad r u grumbling about
wad r u scared for
wad are those things that make u scared?
scared this and that
make urslef to be firm!!!lousy girl

who is this?
i dunno u...
u r just a shameless..
please go away from me!!!!

u even forget about a lot of things
where is ur motivation?
where is ur pride?
where is ur confindent?
where is ur strong behaviour?
where is ur free smile?
where is ur cheerful attitude?
where?
wad r u doing now?
wad r u emo for?

its ur fault to let go ur confidet,
independent
who ask u??
u can be strong last time

all those things that u promise to urself...
wad is it come out?
nothing
in the end its just a dissapointment..
a sin
every point that u mention to urself
its just goneee...
gonee......!!!!
its just gone by a slow wind that blowing it away....

u r just a damn stupid girl
why r u crying...
is this the only thing u can do??

u wan to be happy
everybody wan
u wan to be loved
everyone does

u just make urslef even more sad
more mistakes
wake up!!!
do i need to pour water to ur face so that u will wake up?!!!

u nvr think about ur parents?
wad will they feel!!!!
think!!!!!
SAY!!!!!
i tot these are the most important in ur life....
BLUFF!!!

wad do u get???
nothing...
will it make u satisfied?

u must get urslef backkk!!!
can not just sit there
wondering this and that

christmas is coming
u better...wake up!!!
pleaseee....
wake uppp....
i dunnnoo where u r ...my soul...my spirit...
I me MYSELF
i dunno where have u been hiding...
i just need u backk....

pleasee......~~~

1 year anni started with nasi lemak...lolx

2008-11-24T06:47:00.000-08:00

1 year anni....at last.

well..we keep oursleves to be happy on this special day but it started with him came late to my home!!! super turn off!!!

alamak...imagine from 11 become 2o'clock!!!

k...but he kind a make me feel a bit happy..lolx...

he bought for me nasi lemakkk....near his house there...i love the nasi lemak there...hehe

i half way eat the nasi lemak then i rmbr to take photo for this blog...lolx

it seems like hm...okie2 kind a food but when u eat...uuuu...its nice!!

and for ur info.. this is how the pig eat the food

humph...u see how he mess my room.. ckck

and come to the worst part...yeah u r rite...after he ate..he said that he want to take a nap for half a hour....really a pig!! omg.....but when the time to wake up comes....guess what?

he was offering for another 1 hour...and he refuse to wake up

tat make me super2 turn off..
what?1 year anni u slp??

omg....can u wake me up from this nightmare......?!!!

then it super make me pissed and asked him to slp whole day no need to wake up and no need to celebrate alr lor...

slp la..slp la...(this was what it thought)

haiz...super turn of..

so i go and watch my daa..daa.daaa( ufo baby)

but when i half way watched my daa daa daa...he woke up..sat on the bed...well..i guess he felt guilty...perhaps....

well..actually when he woke up..i kind feel sleepy coz i think i watch too much.so my eyes were tired..

but..
he asked me to go and wash ola cage together...so i cant refuse...coz i refuse i think ola cage will be cleaned for a year after today..i tell u what..ola is supeeerrr duperrrr smelly..

whahahaa. he is so poor thign being adopted by us...im sorry ola....

coz we nvr clean him that often as we were damn busy..with assesment then competition...bla..bla...

so no time lor.
ah....i bought a new tray and a new water bottle for ola...cozz his old one is spoil alr..

so after we clean that we put and arranged everythings lor...guess what?we oso shower ola and now he smell so nice...coz this stupid pig used my shampoo and shower ola...omg...

he used my essence shampooooooo!!!!!! T.T

nah..the black one is his new tray so the poo will just fall to the newspaper there...lolx.. okies

due to ray's wish to put in that this is his idea of putting this tray so i will say that this is his idea..happy pig?lolx..but i dunno whther this idea is going to work as what y tot or not...

now ola super cute and super clean...(of course ^^)

but i guess he still adapt with his new tray coz he hasnt poo since we put him in the cage...haha

and these are his poo...omg..i tell u...its super damn smelly and i almost puke when we clean it...iiiiiihhh...

( i should tk the pict more cleareer and focus on the poo hor...haha)

ps: the poo are inside that plastic bags

then..before we went out for dinner..ray was trying to cut ola's nail..coz it super long and when u try to catch him...he will try to jump here and there so..u will get scratches for sure...

as for today is ray's turn..lolx...haha..poor thing

we decided to eat at hotpot culture in marina square...for our dinner

coz the day before...we got watched this singaporean dunno what does it called..coz it is in chinese..so i dunno..they tell u where to find nice food...this type of show ...

so we were being tempted to try well actually is raymond being super tempted by that..lolx...coz they oso have this chocolate fondue..haha...free flow...so..haha..yah...

nw...we ate buffet...steamboat buffet with side dishes+ice cream+the chocolate fondue...woh...

and make our stomach blown like baloon...

i still tot the chocolate wont taste so nice..but the dark chocolate is not that bitter that made us order more..lolx....im sure im getting fatter...omGGGG

haha...
k the price is 19.80++ per person including everythings so just now we paid it like S$52

...nw..i love their BBQ prawn...it taste very nice...u should go and try !!
well..on the way home we passed raffless place christmas tree..so we decided to take some pictures there...hm....it has been a long time since that day we took pictures together..kind a miss that moments...^^

haha..btw,

instead of orchard christmas tree now is raffless place christmas tree..

and do u noe that i was very surprised..when i was about to try to take our pictures using my own hand...got this teenager..came and asked me whether i need her help to tk pict of us or not..woh...i was so shocked so i just stoned..and blur2 asked her what did she say just now..wahhahaa..

and she repeated so i faster reply by saying..oh...okie...thanks...haha...

i was very blur..omg..

so paise...

she was the one took this pict for us..

quite nice hor...got the angle..sia...lolx

but look at that pig's stomach...can u see?lolx....he looks like preganant lady...oh nooo!!

this is taken by ray...lolx...i guees its has been very long time when he is being inisiative to tk my pict...^^..so touched...

u miss me is it?lolx ....i wish its not only for today...

well..happy 1 year aniversary dear...

hope that..all will be changed to something much better!!

and now..i a bit flu + cough...humph..super turn off...i guess i need a rest...k...gd nite guys...have a sweet dream.^^

Our 1 year anni is tml ^^

2008-11-22T22:20:00.000-08:00

well...time had passed very fast....

tml is our 1 year anni....where we are being together in clarke quay...

we were also celebrate our christmas..by walking to orchard...

haha...this is the photo taken....

nah...got christmas tree there..lol

yeah..i dunno that was the starting of our up and down memories...

a lot..a lot...of things had happened...

sometimes i just feel on giving up about this rs...

but i dunno why...haha....it continue till today...

i just like when u smile..and of course i hate u when u angry...

super hate..i just feel like slapping ur face...wahahhaa...

haha...i want to see what things had u prepare for us tml?

u said a picnic?

haha..well....i dunno what type of picnic are you refering to..and i guess this is the first time i got a picnic with u...so lets make it as a sweet memory for us...^^

happy office

2008-11-18T07:19:00.000-08:00

yeah..can upload photos ..so happy^^

NS:why the meeting area after i upload become blue colour?it supposed to be orange colour...huh ?

wah...happy office competition is the first competition that i wish i will lose and so it become...wahhaha...
none of NAFA group that being sent over insisted to win...coz we are too exhausted after assessment...
my group more jialat...
we come up with the idea on saturday,where the competition is on monday...
we are souper rushing to complete it...within one day we must finish the rendering,modeling,panel..and so ever...
we split ampng ourselves...oyeah..forget to say..that my group are me,ray,wq and crystal..
so at first me and wq brain storm till both of our head explode..but yet kena rejected by edwin..omg..
then we come out with the new idea of a virtual space...
happy office-virtual space..haha...
i dunno whether this is considered as happy or not...
well..
then with our nafa style..we proposed a tunnel to the space...which is the entrance for the office...
then for the genreal we play with the cables all these..
so once the big idea settle...i proceed with the floor plan....arrange all the seatings...bla..bla..
then make some of the 3d model...with the rest
then render...and send all the files through msn..which are super siiong....
send here and there...coz we were doing it on sunday...lol...can not meet up ma..then msn lor..
walaw...i tell u....my group nvr sleep continue on doing...and lucky we can finish
we finish at 8o'clock in the morning..
then after that arrange the things in photoshop and wait for 10 o;clock we go print and we go to the competition place..
one more thing
haha.we did tell edwin that we do this half hearted and dun wan to win..well i think he was so sad and dissapointed on us...but i think he go so well till on that day..he go and tell sabrina the same thing that we told him ...OMG....lol..
then okay lor..all noe alr...so we feel kind a relax..and dun care whether we win or not
and the funny part edwin did said that this is his first time he saw people are not nervous waiting for the outcome report...lol
haha...the judger said that our ideas is interesting but they wonder why our one seems not that deatil(where we nvr really put all the stuff like laptop,etc the minor2 detail lor) then i said to them
well actually we only have 1 week to do this as we were having our assessment..haiyoo...i should told them that we did that in 2 days...wahahah...i wonder how they will react lor...wahhaha..sure very shock..
yeah..then at last the announcement come out then we are not being called as the finalist...then we were like giving signal to each other that yeah we made it!!...lol
haha..then when we are about to leave ...the person called lilin'group..he said group 2 and 4 please stay behind....alamak...later then i noe that they are being called and oofered a job as a 3d modelling (lilin and eilin) coz they are impressed on their 3d...haha..
then when edwin found out that we were stull indside he come in and said...what are u guys doing here?what happened?with that "" type of expression which make us laugh...lol
then once we were out from that place edwin talked to patrick( one of the judger) told him that we actually half hearted on joining this competition..lol...
(well actually we tot that this competitiion is one day one..so we dun mind..then in the end is 2 weeks...mampus lah)
yeah..then patrick kind a shock ...lol...
he did said that he like the concept but its just they one is not being really resolved..lol..
then2...
yeah...at last i just wan to said..HAPPY HOLIDAYSS....lol...
finally,,i can say that this is a holidy..well of course after exhibition assessment though..lol

Bad day

2008-10-26T05:26:00.001-07:00

Well, who dunno this idiot girll....
she is such abitch. i dunno what is in her mind....we just quarell not a long ago..and i wanted to just make and have peace with her...trying to make all the things turn back to normal but it seems that this girl dun wan to make all normal...she insisting on light on the fire...
then i will let her light it on till she become happy...
she just ruin my day..
i cant do work...i cant focus...but u just wait and see...
all the things that u said karma....will turn back to u...and i will always rmb what u have done to me...
i will rmb that...u ask me to do this towards u..and u dun get me wrong if i really mean what i said..

is it very hard for u just to make all the problems simple with a nice solutions?
i cant understadn the way u think.....u nvr chg..
can it be that u r the one that one guy told me that there will be a freind of u that will make things worst and betrayed me...
well..God...i dunno what to do..i just wan peace between us...i still treat u as my friend though outside i will always try not to ....
coz my other part of my heart said that u r still my friend no matter what
but on the other hand..i just feel being betrayed with my own best freind...
such a small case can become a big gap between us...

i really had enough..ENOUGH
of all these problems happened to me...
God can i have my happiness back...
i wan to search for it...I want You God..
i believe everythigns that happened might have a good result in the end...
and i hope u can help this to make it true...

i just wish that i can go back to the past and chged everythings....
i hope....

bad day

2008-10-15T08:39:00.000-07:00

well..today is considered as my bad day...at first is because of kimberly, she rejected my floor plan..as i need to chg quite alot of things which make me so sian....haizz...
then..must think about that stupid human wave how to treat them differently..as what i have now
then i wasnt feel so well today..as my neck still cant turn to the left side and my left eye also got prob...dunno what thing lah...something like invisible pimple..lolx...
but its very pain u noe...
i wish i can see the bumb so i can squeeezzzeeeeee.....them till "muncrat"
haiyaaa...then now my right arm like sprain litat...
make me so sian...to do my work
my whole body is like ...dying...and also my mind..
haiz..i wish i can run away from all these..but i bet i cant..
im scared to share all my thoughts and all what i have been thought for these few monthss...
a lot a lot of things...happened and i always keep my feeling secret inside my heart..and it is the most hard case that i need to do almost evryday...
though sometimes..i cant hide when that thing come...i will confrim bad mood...
haiz...why these few months i more moody,,,,i hate me now...i dun like me now at all...
i wan to become like last time and go back to that time and take a look who am i at the past..
i also almost forget about my main purpose for coming to singapore....
i forget about the thing that...is very important...which is my family...
i guess im a family kind of person...
but i dunno who am i now...
that family feeling seems to change to be one...
which i dun wan it to turn out that way...
sometimes i justt keep telling myself...what i need to do and think..but i just make things even more worst...i guesss im not better than the person that i dun like..
i am so ashamed to be who am i now...
well i guess none of u will understand what i am talking about right now...coz me myself also very lost...but the thing is now im trying to find the OLD me...wish me luck guys!

kk...now i need to do my exhibition..the stupid exhibition..haiz...3 concepts...omg...

First Blog

2008-10-14T08:51:00.000-07:00

Okay....my first blog is going to talk about hayati first...
haiz...this morning is super like omg bangeddddd dah...
almost all the people in class...dun even noe whats going on with the brief or what are we supposed to hand in to Hayati..Last nite i just doodling2...dunno what i sketched..and i tell u what..i just sketch for the sake of filling my A5 stupid sketch book...
We are supposed to make our own design philosophy which i totally2...100percent BLUR....
haiz..i guess no body clear about what she wants till now..haha...so poor thing...
okie..then with a thick skin i just show her whatever thing i had...whatever skecthes all these..
and what hayati said " Okay,,,what you did is just the same like diana..can not...can not.." bla...bla.....suddenly whatever she said i dun get it any single word from her...its just pass through my ear and dunno go where...it just dissapear lor....haiyaaa...
then come to the worst is...NEXT WEEK is our so called pre-assessment...i guess...
haha....
we need to hand in our skecth book..n till now..seriously i dunno what to do....i might hand in the wrong thing again...:( OMG...
k...then after hayati class...me and ray went to buy food...then just gather around the rest in front of the 3B class and ate there...
nw i bought "Tom yam fried rice" and he bought "Porridge"
the tom yam in sarah place..OMG>..
i got the spoilt mussel and one spoilt prawn...haiz...what a waste...
ckck...i wont buy that again .....
wastee money...lolx
well...coz my pig asked me to help him bring his medi as he was not feeling well...so i went home...
i made the medi for him and bring along yov's the plug...
next lesson is chen ling lesson...
OMG...i knew it its going to be so free..and the stupid part is i never bring my laptop...
and i was struglling about my id 3d max stuff...which i scared i cant make things work in the end of the day....OMG...

so nothing to do in class after show him the innovative details..so i went to approach nora...to teach me how to blog and nora this is the result...WAHAHHAHA
i still dunno how to put pict...lolx...

haiaaaaaa...
i think im not supposed to do this blog now...lolx...as i super struggling with my id...dun even noe how to do the stupid elevation for tml and also how to model my ID....so..sian...

aha..wait...can i put a link in this blog?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kCwMZN6NX-g
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I5ALIL7T764
okie...i think this should be the way how to put link over here..lolx..
kk..enjoy the link...
lolx

2008-10-14T02:31:00.000-07:00

hello ppl
tiz is nora
i'm here on behalf of tiwi
i help her make her 1st entry =))